Well the boys have to compile a list of their top ten albums of last year...figured Id give it a go..
1.Alice in Chains-black gives way to blue
2.drew nelson-dusty road to beulah land
3.Pearl jam-backspacer
4.paloma faith-do you want the truth or something beautiful
5.seasick steve-i started out with nothing........
see,Im kinda stuck now,so much of the stuff I like is old!
Earlier,I posted on twitter that the price we pay for being IN the centre of a family is having to BE the centre of a family,to hold everyone together no matter what,and to hold fast.The centre cant crack,because the family will suffer,and the pressure is hard.Sometimes,as I said,it is lonely in the middle,but the reward of being in the centre of a family who love and are loved in return is worth everything. :) And if all it costs is to hold on and keep everyone together,then Ill hang on forever. :)They are worth it.
Sunday, 24 January 2010
Sunday, 10 January 2010
drugs and deliberation
Because it sounds better than 'mad ramblings of sleep deprived woman with decongestant'
We are all connected,every day,to the ones we love.They never really leave you,either by death or distance,that which you shared with them is always real.So many diferent connections,like invisible webs,spreading out accross the world,anchored to a moment,a thought or an event,or simply to blood or family of another kind.They find their way to the other person,and anchor again there. Sometimes the lines are restrictive,tight and thick as steel- a bond that feels heavy and stifling,yet others are little more than gossimer,connecting through time and space to when the world was both bigger and smaller,and our place in it was childhood certain.So many ways to love and be loved,and even those wires which appear broken can somehow tug all to effectively with a single atom,sending lightening down the connection and bringing the memory home.There are those I love,those I remember fondly,and some connections which are not love or even persistant habit,but merely a quirk of something larger than me.Its all pretty impressive. And very fuckin awesome.Now Im off to pass out and wait for the drugs to work..
We are all connected,every day,to the ones we love.They never really leave you,either by death or distance,that which you shared with them is always real.So many diferent connections,like invisible webs,spreading out accross the world,anchored to a moment,a thought or an event,or simply to blood or family of another kind.They find their way to the other person,and anchor again there. Sometimes the lines are restrictive,tight and thick as steel- a bond that feels heavy and stifling,yet others are little more than gossimer,connecting through time and space to when the world was both bigger and smaller,and our place in it was childhood certain.So many ways to love and be loved,and even those wires which appear broken can somehow tug all to effectively with a single atom,sending lightening down the connection and bringing the memory home.There are those I love,those I remember fondly,and some connections which are not love or even persistant habit,but merely a quirk of something larger than me.Its all pretty impressive. And very fuckin awesome.Now Im off to pass out and wait for the drugs to work..
Saturday, 2 January 2010
revised resolutions
...Cos if youre going to be unrealistic,go the whole hog...
This year I will also: Discover more music-I work in HMV for gods sake,it shouldnt be that hard!
Additionally,Play more Bass...cos I can ;)
and lastly,Be more bloody grateful for what,and who I have,cos in all honesty,my 'family' both blood and chosen,are pretty fuckin awesome.
Heres to a great new year for everyone :) May it bring you love,excitement and change,because nothing stands still,and it would be pretty fuckin boring if it did!
This year I will also: Discover more music-I work in HMV for gods sake,it shouldnt be that hard!
Additionally,Play more Bass...cos I can ;)
and lastly,Be more bloody grateful for what,and who I have,cos in all honesty,my 'family' both blood and chosen,are pretty fuckin awesome.
Heres to a great new year for everyone :) May it bring you love,excitement and change,because nothing stands still,and it would be pretty fuckin boring if it did!
Thursday, 31 December 2009
resolutions and revelations
Well,guess its that time of year again-emerge blinking and hungover into the light of another new year and decide this is the year it will all be different...just as soon as the pepto bismol starts to work and the light stops hurting your eyes... This year Ive decided on preemptive action,and am posting my resolutions both early and sober. This may help,as last years resolution consisted of 'I will never get flu on new years eve again and spend the night throwing up alone on the couch at home'. The year before,resolutions were hastily scrawled on the back of a bar napkin,and took me the entire year to decipher,and so on. At least this year,I will be able to look back on a clear concise list,and go 'bit bloody hopeful werent ya,love?!' So here goes...
1.) I will absolutely,catagorically NOT be working in retail next christmas.Seriously,Im 30 years old,and I just dont have the stamina or the patience,nor the ability to take abuse from customers simply because they forgot to shop earlier.
2.)Apply to go back to school. Theres a part time degree in biological anthropology at Roehampton,and come hell or high water,my application is going in. No harm in trying.
3.)Ties in with number 1 somewhat: Apply for as many trainee pathology technician jobs as possible. Its taken 12 years+ ta get to this,no more excuses!
4.) To refuse to leave the doctors surgery until I finally get some answers on how to treat my daughters STC. It has been 10 YEARS people,Im pretty sure science and medicine have advanced a little,hmmm?!
5.)More ink! Some butterflies and a 'family' please!
6.)GET A DIVORCE!!!
7.)Learn to relax a little,seriously,the world is NOT gonna stop turning if you forget to empty a bin once in a while.
I hope at least ONE of these makes it (wont tell you which is highest on the list-guess a little!)
Hope wherever and whoever you celebrate with,you bring in the new year with someone you love.X
1.) I will absolutely,catagorically NOT be working in retail next christmas.Seriously,Im 30 years old,and I just dont have the stamina or the patience,nor the ability to take abuse from customers simply because they forgot to shop earlier.
2.)Apply to go back to school. Theres a part time degree in biological anthropology at Roehampton,and come hell or high water,my application is going in. No harm in trying.
3.)Ties in with number 1 somewhat: Apply for as many trainee pathology technician jobs as possible. Its taken 12 years+ ta get to this,no more excuses!
4.) To refuse to leave the doctors surgery until I finally get some answers on how to treat my daughters STC. It has been 10 YEARS people,Im pretty sure science and medicine have advanced a little,hmmm?!
5.)More ink! Some butterflies and a 'family' please!
6.)GET A DIVORCE!!!
7.)Learn to relax a little,seriously,the world is NOT gonna stop turning if you forget to empty a bin once in a while.
I hope at least ONE of these makes it (wont tell you which is highest on the list-guess a little!)
Hope wherever and whoever you celebrate with,you bring in the new year with someone you love.X
Friday, 25 December 2009
presents,company and absent friends
Happy Christmas and belated Yule! The boys made a perfect dinner-planned with military precision and carried out with the concentration normally reserved for sale scale out or end of year finance reports.Cai is currently riding the sugar express to Rabbid-ville on the wii,having exhausted herself yesterday by coming in to work for the final hour(otherwise known as the big push) donning a t shirt and,with lanyard round neck and power from flatmate proceeded to take me to task on the state of my section! Hope evryone had a good one,wherever they are.Lastly,to Kevin Markham,No,I didnt open it,cos season of goodwill or not Im not getting fooled again.Merry xmas everyone!xxx
Tuesday, 24 November 2009
aliens and dyno-rod
Well,since the last installment Ive been told at 10 to 9 on a school night that the kiddo requires a full alien costume by 9am the following day (said kiddo having forgotten to tell me this a week ago...)and then told 2 days ago that she hadnt been to the loo for 4 days and now her stomach hurt...ever get the feeling that communication is not her strong point?! Sure,she can tell me a billion terrible jokes or the latest moshi monster news in mind numbing detail,but when it comes to relating important stuff,like costumes or toileting,well...maybe not.Firstly,the alien suit...fortunately,mama was a raver in years gone by,or a cyber goth kinda thing,and so a fluorescent neon pink fluffy jacket and a very short belly top in purple with batik tribal sleeves were quickly conjured up (hey,I never said I was a raver with taste okay,and pre kid the belly was something to be flashed not hidden...) and with some alterations and cursing,tada!The purple top is teamed with purple trousers,the pink jacket is sewn round the trousers like a skirt,and the arms of the pink top are attatched with string and hair ties to the arms of the purple top so they are suspended just below her own arms,and move when she does...following? So basically,out of nothing more than two fashion disasters and string,in under 2 hours,I have created a 4 armed pink and purple alien.Yay me.
As for the toilet thing,well its like this-Kiddo was diagnosed with encopresis at 2,and then with STC at 9. Long story short,her guts work waaaay slower than most,and its a delicate balancing act keeping her healthy.When she neglects to tell me small details like the fact she hasnt been for 4 days,this means I then have to resort to 7 doses of movicol in a litre of water in the space of 3 hours.Then wait 2 days,2 otherwise healthy days she has to miss school and I have to miss one of the busiest new release days at work (colour me popular) because with all that stuff inside her she is the equivalent of a time bomb,and I cant risk her having a large accident anywhere...you get the picture. My flatmate suggested mentoes and coke...cruel,but she finds it hysterical...anyhow,aliens and crapatoa aside,Bones was awesome. Stephen Fry..."hope and patience",nuf said...
As for the toilet thing,well its like this-Kiddo was diagnosed with encopresis at 2,and then with STC at 9. Long story short,her guts work waaaay slower than most,and its a delicate balancing act keeping her healthy.When she neglects to tell me small details like the fact she hasnt been for 4 days,this means I then have to resort to 7 doses of movicol in a litre of water in the space of 3 hours.Then wait 2 days,2 otherwise healthy days she has to miss school and I have to miss one of the busiest new release days at work (colour me popular) because with all that stuff inside her she is the equivalent of a time bomb,and I cant risk her having a large accident anywhere...you get the picture. My flatmate suggested mentoes and coke...cruel,but she finds it hysterical...anyhow,aliens and crapatoa aside,Bones was awesome. Stephen Fry..."hope and patience",nuf said...
Friday, 6 November 2009
lovesongs and sortouts
Have decided that entire house bears striking resemblance to trash heap/junkyard. Have resolved to fix this,possibly with the aid of a flamethrower and or pyromaniac housemate. In a new newsflah, I got to watch a whole,entire show on tv,mostly uninterrupted. Moms reading this will know how rare this is,especially when there is a 10 year old,a 30 year old and a thirty two year old (latter two have mental age of 10)also in the house who have stuff they want to watch. Well,yesterday was MY turn to triumph,and we watched Bones :) I wanted to be an anthropologist for years,and a biological anthropologist is my idea of a perfect career.Bones is therefore the only show I have watched,from the pilot onwards,religiously.And I have to stop at this point to just say FOR GODS SAKE BOOTH,JUST KISS HER ALREADY!!! I really dont think I can take much more of the sexual tension thats been building over 4 series...Ive only felt that kind of tension once,with my current boyfriend,and we found out afterwards that EVERYONE at work felt the same way as I do watching Booth and Brennan dancing around each other. As such,while I have very little time for love songs in general,anyone in a situation like this could do worse than listen to Lifehouse's 'Hanging by a Moment'. Im not one for hearts swelling,tender whatchamacallits and general mushiness,but who hasnt at some point been standing inches away from someone they are ridiculously attracted to,and,having made a move is just waiting in agony to find out what the outcome will be.Its a case of 'Im either gonna get kissed or laughed at,but I cant back out now...'
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